...For the men who have loved you, they believed...
It keeps staring at me from my computer screen. It's there, someone wrote it about me in another place.
I keep reading it over and over again and can't believe what is the truth.
There hasn't been a man who loved me.
I refuse to count my High School boy friend even though he did tell me he loved me but he loved Star Wars and Samantha Fox too.
My ex?
I suppose he thought he loved me but as time goes by I realize that this poor man is unable to love.
That leaves...no one.
No one has been in love with me.
Oh I've been with 2 other men, one who was a player and my current...other but there is no love. There is a certain fondness but love? No.
I bring this all up to reiterate the fact that I do not think that being in love is everyone's lot in life.
Every one deserves love and I do have an abundance of love in my life but not everyone is going to be in love or have some one who is in love with them.
Don't even try to tell me otherwise.
I know that you know of at least one person that just never seems to find 'the one'.
It's fine, I'll survive.
My kind always does.
Please don't tell me other wise it really doesn't help when you say, "there's someone for every one" or "You're worthy of love".
False hope is so damaging.
I am not sad or depressed about this, wistful perhaps but not unhappy.
I have love in my life just not all kids of love.
5 comments:
I don't believe there is "the one".
I think there are many loves. Not just one, not just "the one".
You do come across depressed. You do come across as if actually feel unworthy.
Are you not in love? Is it you that hasn't felt like you have truly loved? I question this becuz
you said:
"I bring this all up to reiterate the fact that I do not think that being in love is everyone's lot in life."
But then you say-
"There hasn't been a man who loved me".
What is your definition of love?
Love is ever changing.
tho you don't want me to say,
tho you don't believe it,
I think if truly feel you are worthy it will come to you.
We may know it or not, we do have our walls our barriers where love can't penetrate. We must break down our walls. We must be accepting. Have hope. If you are searching for it--Happiness and love are elusive but not exclusive.
And by the way,
what is "your kind"?
Also, I don't think I'm trying to build false hope. I think I speak truth and honesty. I am genuine and wouldn't say it if I didn't BELIEVE!
I do believe that there is
Thank you Blessed.
I do have love in my life.
I am loved and I do love.
It's that over romanticized version of love of which I speak.
There is not some one for everyone.
There isn't.
And I know you know of people who do not have a, for lack of a better term, someone special in their lives.
By my kind I mean....survivors.
You want to do more than survive.
You want to thrive.
What you charactarize as 'love,' seems to match quite closely to my definition of 'infatuation.'
Infatuation never lasts. Love does. Love, to me, is a certain intimacy that borders on the spiritual. There is many facets to it. One , undoubtedly, is sexual. Another is affection. But there's more to it than that.
To be honest, I don't think I've ever been loved by a woman. Not in that way. On the other hand, have I loved anyone according to my definition?
Not yet.
Right now, I'm not looking for love.
It doesn't mean that I've given up on the concept, just that I'm not actively pursuing it.
If it happens, it happens. And I'll be happy about it.
If not, well I'll still be happy, just in a different way.
Good luck
Yeharr
I'm a surivor......
my parents are in love still
and the one thing they have in common with other couples who are as happy at fortieth anniversary (!!) as at the beginning?
they're still the most fascinating people they've ever met.
and i'm with pirate.
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