Is it OK for me to not believe in Santa Claus anymore?
I looked at my 10 year old daughter, her eyes searching mine for signs of approval.
Is it OK for me not to believe in Santa Claus anymore?
What was I going to say? No it's not OK to grow up, to move on? No it's not OK to put aside childish things and take a big step towards adulthood?
Is it OK for me not to believe in Santa Claus anymore?
My head swam with visions of her first Christmas, her eyes bulged out of her head at the sight of the presents left under the tree by Santa Claus and letters written and re written to the jolly old elf. I held back tears as I recalled plates of cookies and carrots left out right before too late bedtimes on Christmas Eve.
I blinked back my tears and looked at her and really saw her. A young girl on the verge of puberty desperately wanting to grow up yet a part of her still wishing to remain a child.
Is it OK for me not to believe in Santa Claus anymore?
Yes of course it's OK, if it's OK I still believe in Santa Claus?
She smiled, nodded her head and gave me a big hug.
Christmas sure is going to be a little different this year!
7 comments:
Oh sweetie.....
I have tears in my eyes because I dread this moment.....
I can just imagine all the feelings and emotions you have to be feeling.
*hugs*
I still believe in Santa!!!!!! And I'm 35 (almost 36).
What a perfect answer.
You're doing good...
Yeharr
better for you to tell her now.. than catch you in a lie.. and play dumb (for 35 years) so she can get preasants from you.. er.. i mean santa.
Kristen she went on to tell me that she promises not to tell her little sister because, "she's just a little kid."
*sniff*
Blessed I'll always believe!
Thank you Balloon Pirate, that means very much to mean coming from you.
Thank you, Mr. Menace.
ah, they grow up way too fast, don't they? treasure every moment, and fear not, many more special times to come.
Christmas is a magical time even if Santa forms no part of it. There's an excitement and expectation about the whole event that children pick up from the adults around them, so if we make sure that WE have a great time then they will too.
I have a problem with telling blatant untruths to children, who depend on the adults around them for information about the world. I took some heat when my daughter was tiny for having explained the whole 'Santa Myth' to her, even before she first went to school.
When she was about 18 I asked her if she thought that this had spoiled Christmas for her, and she said that she didn't think that it had.
After all, she'd still had the bag filled with presents to wake up to, the fun of leaving out food and drink for 'Santa' and all the other Christmas ritual. She just knew that it was all a bit of fun much earlier than her friends did :o)
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