One more theater post for this month then that is it I swear!
Opening night went well.
The audience was receptive.
They laughed at the appropriate times.
Saturday night the house had a record breaking amount of people.
The theater company invited an adjudicator from a theater association to the performance.
The theater company recently began adjudicating their performances to gain
recognition int the theater community and as a learning experience.
My last directorial foray was the first production to be adjudicated and one of my actors won an award for excellence.
I was...LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING ADJUDICATED*.
I was expecting feedback both positive and negative, I was expecting to be noticed in a 6 member cast.
After sitting through a 45 minute adjudication and listening to 4 of the other actors, quite rightly, be complimented on a job well done, I received a six word nice but vague sentence about me and an other actress.
That was it.
The MAID, who had one scene, got more notice.
I suppose I deserved this after my last post.
I was disappointed and angry.
I felt as if I was not even in the play.**
Oh! The adjudicator kept calling my character by the wrong name so there was that too!
My children had been with me during Saturday night's show and on the way home from the theater they asked why I was so quite and I told them the story and how all I really wanted was to be noticed.
My 11 year old said, "I know what you mean!" and began relating to me stories about how no matter what she does it is always so&so or this one who gets all the credit or the attention.
I teared up and empathised with her.
We smiled and I held her hand for the rest of the ride home.
I did not have the heart to tell her that it it going to get worse.
I did not tell her that when she begins to notice boys they will undoubtedly not notice her because, though I think she is beautiful, she is not conventionally beautiful and that she has also inherited my pear shaped body which teen aged boys do not appreciate as much as the bodies of her well developed friends.
I did not tell her about walking through life feeling as if she was virtually invisible.
We just held hands in the dark and drove silently to my cast party where she was not invisible and was treated like a princess.
*Never, ever, ever expect anything.
Why have not I learned this lesson.
**Could this BE a better example of GODSMACK?!?
9 comments:
There's an apocryphal story about an early Walter Matthau performance, where someone was going on and on about the talent of one of his co-performers. Matthau supposedly asked the person why he wasn't mentioning his own performance. "Oh, well you coul really see that he was acting. With you, it seemed like you weren't acting at all!"
That being said. I think the ajudicator was an ass for glossing over your performance. It's right up there with the Professor and Mary Ann being grouped as 'and the rest' in the first year's theme song of Gilligans Island.
Yay you!
yeharr
OMG!
THAT is perfect!
My one complaint about the show is that some people seemed like they were ACTING (forefinger pointed into air)!
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
A few "Master Thespians" (a Jon Lovitz character from SNL) in you cast, huh? Anyway, as the director, the actor that won the award probably would not have won it if it weren't for you. Cheers!
Count me in with the Pirate. Yay you, yeharr!
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Well I just received word that the cast received a meritorious achiement award.
Guess I should be happy.
This does mean that 2 productions I am associated with have won awards.
Really, I am such a whiney baby lately.
I am starting to annoy myself
A couple of sayings come to mind:
1. 'A pessimist is never disappointed'
2. 'Live, love, laugh and be happy', from the old music hall song, 'The Red, Red Robin'.
3. 'The Atlantic Ocean exists purely to keep Slow Learner away from Dark Lady, for he would otherwise fritter his life away in a futile pursuit of her favours'
OK, I made the last one up :o)
Seriously, you can now point at two acclaimed performances with which you've been intimately associated. And if I were you I'd point out that you stepped down from a director's to a performer's role in order to more effectively share your experience with needy newcomers :o)
yeah, i have to agree with pirate.
(though i can certainly relate to that invisible feeling you describe. boy, can i...)
you should be very proud. congrats!
You know how good you did, you know how hard you worked. Be proud of yourself and your accomplishments. You have done so many things I would only dream of.
Hugs to you. And whine all you want, this is a great place to get it out.
xo
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