Letter never sent

Dear__________,



That was a stunning email you sent to me.

I had no idea that you were so miserable on Friday night, your performance in the bedroom showed none of your displeasure with me.

I agree that I did call you an A-hole and I did say you were demanding and bitchy.

You know that I do not like to be bossed around and your telling me to go fetch something for you compounded the anger I felt about your scheduling event three Saturday nights in a row that did not include me. I was angry that I had to change my plans and the plans of my family.

I apologize, I can be a horrible bitch when I am angry.



You have told me before that your allergies make you intolerable, I had no idea that you meant you could not tolerate other people I thought you meant it made you intolerable to others.

I was under the impression that the three prescriptions you take for your allergies, the prescription eye drops plus the raw honey and benedrile would some how relieve you of some of your allergy suffering.

I apologize for hurting your feelings, you are right you do not need anyone in your home calling you an A-hole.



I am willing to take all the blame for that however stating that "Maybe we spend too much time together not in the (bedroom)" has rocked me to the core.

If you recall at the beginning of this "relationship", or whatever you wish to call it, we both agreed to keep things on a light and easy day to day level.

It was YOU that crossed the line.

I was more than willing to keep it physical but YOU were the one that started asking for little favors and yes I did them a. because I am a nice person and I enjoy doing things for the people I like and b. I figured that you wanted a little more.

So I shaved your neck, I lotioned your back, I used the back massager on you, I helped you choose your paint colors for your bedroom and gifts for your nieces and I met your friends. I did it all because I LIKED you and I actually began to care about you and enjoy having you in my life.

SHAME ON ME.

SHAME ON ME for assuming that meeting your ENTIRE family made us more than friends with benefits.

SHAME ON ME for assuming that you being sometimes thoughtful and sweet made you more than just a sex partner.

SHAME ON ME for assuming that the small things you did for me were more than just "paying for pussy".

SHAME ON ME for letting you into MY life and letting my girls fall in love with you.

SHAME, SHAME on me.

I did all those things because you asked but more importantly I did all those things because I wanted to and all I asked in return was for you to be kind to me, to respect me, to allow me to have some importance in your life.

I never asked for you to adore me or to love me, I never asked for more of a commitment than just to be decent to me.

I believe that I have been far from demanding.



So now what?

I apologized and I said I cared about you.

I haven't heard from you since.

Maybe we do need time apart but know this;

If you walk away you will be making the biggest mistake of your life.

I am smart and funny.

I am strong and I have an amazing body and I think I am quite pretty.

(BTW you've never said these things to me but it's OK, I learned along time ago to do alot of things for myself)

I am a salty bobcat pretzel in the bedroom and you won't find another one like me.

Trust me, I hang out with alot of women and I know what they do or don't do in the bedroom.

I am trustworthy and loyal and I never make demands on the people I care about.

I am always there for my friends.

PLUS I don't take any shit from anyone and you KNOW you enjoyed that!

You would be throwing away the best thing that ever came into your life.



Here's the thing.

If we continue it's one way or another.

Booty call or relationship, you can NOT have your cake and eat it too no matter what your culture teaches you.



The ball is in your court.



signed,



Me



PS Sorry but what does happened between you and I DOES affect your relationship with my children. Why would I let my girls hang out with a guy that thinks all I am is a warm pussy?











Please,

I don't want you to tell me what a jerk he is
I don't want you to tell me that there's more fish in the sea
I don't want to hear what a mistake he's making.
All I want is him and I just don't know if that's going to happen